Sometimes I bound through life making silly, downright idiotic and even atrocious decisions.
I am a very decisive person, but even though I apparently know what I want, it seems, I don’t always know what is best for me!!
However, 12 years ago today I made the very best decision of my entire life: I married you!
Now sometimes you annoy me, just a little bit. The other day you put your smelly feet on the dining table and I thought, “What the fuck?!?” And, in my ever-decisive manner, I had to tell you to put them right back down on the floor again!!!!
Which you then did immediately.
While we’re at it: I don’t cope very well with you not putting your seatbelt on until we get to the top of the street.
And if you really want me to give it to you straight:
You really could wash your hands more often and not wiggle your fingers at me right after you touched the bin lid, in that ‘I’m going to tickle you with my dirty digits’ way that you do. Which makes me, in turn, race to the sink to wash my own hands, even though I haven’t touched a single thing!
But really what I want to do now is get right down to the nitty gritty.
We have been through, in twelve years of marriage, a few things, that nobody ever wants to go through.
Every single moment, you were there. Holding my hand. Wiping away my tears. Picking my outbursts up off the floor, shuggling them around a bit, then carefully putting them back together in a nice, orderly fashion.
You listened, even if I had to prod you awake at times. You knew when to give the hug and when not to give the hug. You cooked and cleaned whenever I needed you to, no matter how tired you were, or how bad your own day had been. You poured wine at all the right moments.
And the other day I overheard you telling Akasha, “As perfect as Mummy is, she has a tendency to exaggerate sometimes.”
Despite everything that I am and have been, everything I’ve done and haven’t done; you still see me as perfect!!! (We’ll ignore the second part of the sentence.) (This isn’t the main reason that I love you.)
Without you I couldn’t be the person that I am today.